*SMASH

This goes to that particular someone whom used to give such a HUGE impact in my life, now no more.

Dulu kite baik gile. Kamcing gile babi sampai dah macam kembar doeh! And I missed those moments. Moments when we were so silly that I thought, 'Gosh! gile kan kite?' and laughed. Those times when I used to give you moral support for you know what. And then we parted, to follow what we desire. And I was not that scared, having to part ways with you because I know our bond is just so tight! We were sisters! And we were great at first, and tibe2 jadi cam kurang rapat and led to this situation now. I wonder what went wrong. Ye lahh. Orang dah jumpe kawan baru, mane igt kawan lame. Tapi aku rase bende tuh tak logik utk KAU jadikan alasan sbb bende tuh apply kat orang yg tak rapat. And you should know better. Serious ah aku cakap weh, aku kecewa sangat ngn kau. Aku tau kau tuh baru nak up even kau dah 21. Please la. Aku dah rase ape yang kau baru nak rase skarang and thats why I'm being protective and contradict dgn kau dlm ape yg kau buat. Sedih tau tgk kawan sendiri nak destroy diri sendiri sbb terikut2 dgn kwn2 baru. Yes, culture shock in short. Sbb aku tau kau mcm mane la aku suruh kau jgn baik sgt ngn diorg. Kau tu sng percaya orang, sng terikut2, lagi2 bile kau nak tunjuk kau tuh memberontak, and I wonder what's the point? Heh.

Aku kecik hati gile bile bnyk kali kau turned down hang out aku sbb so-called social life kau tu! The worst part is? Kau tipu aku untuk cover ape kau buat sbenanye. Hey gile! Tolonglah! Terus terang je lah. At least aku takde la tertunggu2 mcm orang bodoh and terhegeh2 kat kau mcm org gile. Tolonglah! And one more thing, kite kwn baik je, so I know where I am supposed to stand. I think bile aku tak ckp ngn kau lg sng hati. And kau konon2 nangis la mintak maaf sbb slalu buat aku mcm ni la mcm tuh laa, tp you're never sorry. Konon2 mintak simpati laa for the sake of nak tutup salah kau, and orang blame aku sbb mengade2 bengang lame2. Sume tuh sbb orang taktau kau tuh sape! Kau fake laa! Aku sedih tau! Kau tipu sume orang yg care pasal kau sbb kau kejar sgt hidup bersoSIAL kau tuh. Sedihlah tgh kau mcm ni. Mase aku ckp bende2 ni kat kau pon, kau ckp aku tak paham kau laa, cakap aku ni skema, ape aku tau laa. Hoi! Even though aku skema, I know more things than a skema girl would and more than you do. You are leading yourself to destruction and you won't see it, because you refuse to! And because I can see it, I am trying to save you because I know how hurt you are going to be later. This is so sad.

Takpelah. Aku kan kuno sangat! Heh. Aku tau kau sure bace blog aku, sbb thru bende ni je kau tau ape2 pasal aku kan??!!aku sakit ke, hape ke. Aku tau! Aku ckp ngn kau, kau takleh nak dgr, kau refuse nak dgr. Skarang ni aku type, harap kau bace ulang2 kali, even 10thn akan dtg. Please, there is a limit to everything. Mcam hidup, pasti akan mati. Kalau bwk kete kat fast lane, mesti akan ke tepi jugak bg kete yg lebih laju. Macam tuh la hidup ye.


Aku sgt disappointed sampai rase cam (*&^^%&*(.
Benciks :(.
And oren sakit mate :(
Sedih betul.

Dian! Kau sgt weird bile demam. Mwahahahaha :p
Rase hati kosong. haish

I shap expect orang tulis pasal post aku ni kat blog die, and comment on how I should/shouldnt post this. Like I don't know la kan. Like I care. Heh!

bye

jaa, ttyl
Assalamualaikum

:) *edited

Aunty Aizah sent me this,

I met my hubby in his final year, 3 mths b4 he came back to Msia. We were both studying in different colleges in London, staying at different areas, and aunty was a very, very shy girl. I freak out if I see guys stare at me, that I thought I'll nver be married. I didnt want to have a steady because I tengok my friends banyak yg heart broken wasting time in love with a guy, and in the end they broke up, and these girls end up depressed. Too much energy ! I never thought I'll meet my future hubby 3 mths b4 he went back. We bertunang for 2 years and during that time I was in London, and he back in Malaysia.

But all this is jodoh kan. Allah has tentukan for us girls. But I told amy, kerja dulu puas2, so you can save money and spend on yourself only. And if a guy sincerely loves you, he'll wait and not force you.

I don't know why I like this message very much! Seriously. And the last part is just so TRUE!
Wait and see.
Truth is, I am not settling for shit! I am going to settle for a guy that worth the wait. Hell yeah! :D. And I am not desperate either, why bother carik bf mcm nak gile when I am only in my early 20's? Ishh. Should live my life dgn lebih bermakna :). When the time comes, then I'll give all my heart into it. So hell yeah!

I'm so going to work hard,study+keje, cause I am so not going to settle for shit and for dickhead. (Sorry bahase sgt kurang sopan)
:)

jaa, ttyl
Assalamualaikum

p/s: I'm sorry that Ive been talking a lot about relationships and stuff, it seems that it is the most IN topic right now among friends. And I am forced to push whatever I have in mind because my brain can't take 'em anymore. hahahaha :p

And and, Al is soooooooooooo cute! :D


And and, I really think I need to do something with my tendency to delete things when I'm bored! Haishh