:(

I am torn in between. To go or not to go, to take it or not to take it.
If I choose this, I won't get that, and vice versa. There is no way to get both :(
I see both as important.
This one is important, academic wise.
That one is important, spiritually and religiously wise.
Which one? God, guide me.
Sedihnye, having to choose between two crucial things, moments in my life.
Tanak. Tanak.
Though I want both badly, I know I just can't.
Tapi.... please?
Or it is just not my time, yet?
Who knows.
Tapi tanak pilih. I want both.
Sobs.

This week is killing me. Literally and technically. Why must it be this particular week that I have quizzes, deadlines, graded presentation? I have suffered enough. Let me just breathe deeply. Hadoi. Penat. Can I bear with it for another few years? Ganbatte. Ingat, blaja tu jihad :D

jaa, ttyl
Assalamualaikum